from one holiday to another

The week is coming to an end and yup, my spring break is ending.
so fast....shit, new classes are starting. didnt do good last quarter so....need to work hard.(like i really would...)
Surprisingly, i dont feel bad at all like how i did in high school, but instead, a bit anticipated.
nah, maybe i also want to go back to school during high school because staying at home alone was just too boring.
Also, maybe because college-life is quite fun. (get to be 宅er and no one cares)
or maybe its just becoz i dont need to smoke passively for another 3 months.
woops i shouldnt be saying this. now i feel bad.
ya before i leave, i should definitely ask my dad to smoke and drink less, even though it might have little or completely no effect.:(
i dont know. i feel bad coz i dont really miss him that much during school. (but i webcam with him every 2-3 days though haha)
but now i feel bad to leave again.
its like how i felt when my mom leave every time she comes to see me in shanghai.
something is squezing my poor heart
SO SAD...